a falling star promise called forever

created november 3,2005 6.23pm finally finished: november 5,2005 12.00am

he knew all along.if he already knew the answer,why did i have to tell him anyway?why,in fact,did i have to tell everyone?justine caught me sitting on the carpet floor hugging my knees,staring off into space.what was the point of the matchbook romance lyrics? i asked myself over and over. Okayokayokayyyy. akala ko kasi magpapaalam na siya ehHHh..nagkamali ako ng intindi.ilang beses ko ba kasi kailangang ipaalala sa sarile ko na makinig muna bago magreact ha?!!buGokKk!tiklop tuhod akong humihingi ng paumanhin kung nagpapadalos dalos at spoiled brat ako,patawad..sarah says patawWWwwad!bati na tayo ha taba!?oO na kyut ka na kahit wirdo ng toilet habits mo..

i am so fuzzed.how could anyone demand of me what i didn't want to say? why should i concede my feelings to someone anyway? i knew i was in love with ernest but what the use of coming out with it when there was ces? my feelings were mine, and i had given him so much control over me already that he was going to have to deal me a fatal kick before i would let him know how much he meant to me. mahal ko siya, nothing is going to change that.i am still going to be in love with him, whether he returned the feeling or not, whether forfeit's audience allowed it or not! but how much farther on a limb did he want me to go?out there where there were no secure footholds, no rails to hold on to,nothing to fall back on

i am practicing for two things, so i begin to have double sessions. business class every morning; drum practice is every late afternoon. if people asked me what my work and passion were,i'd probably say drums and business/writing respectively. i am a drummer. i am a bride. i am a business woman.i am sarah. my grandchildren will never hear the end of this story, how at some point in her life, their lola kicked ass.

siguro nga'y ang oras nati'y natratrapik..alam ko namang nangingielam ka ng blog ng mei blog ehHHh..lakas ng sayad natin,mula lague sa quotable quotes tayo naguusap..sola gusto mo?? kahit na hindi ko talaga alam kung paano ka naging ej,para sakin nakilala kita bilang ernest..maliit,oo! malandi,oo! bugok,oo! bastus,oo! emo-emo,oo! antukin,oo! lasingero,oo! kuripot,oo! matakaw,oo! maalaga,oo! malambing,oo! isang mabuting kaibigan,oo,sobra!! isang ernest santiago.kay sarap isipin basta't kasama ka lahat ng bagay ay napupuno ng kulay. rainbowbright. sana ang nadarama ko ay hindi na lumipas pa at sa bawat letrang nababasa mo sa blog or diary kong ito iyong makikita na oo ernest santiago..hawiin mo muna bangs mo para magregister sa utak mo..mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal kita.ernest santiago mahal kita.wuhshuuu. mahal kita,payakap!oWw sarap ;-)

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