< / 3 good MOURNING sarah

do i believe in fate? or do we shape our own destiny?i think i believe in a little bit of both. i can't quite explain it. for someone who's used to defining every single human behavior she sees, leaving something to chance is something unfathomable. but like my highschool Stat teacher used to say, who knows? we can only predict the odds but we can never be sure. i believe that what happens will happen; but i'm not about to sit my big butt off and watch my life pass me by. CARPE DIEM. seize the day and make the most out of it. but sometimes you just have to let Nature take its course.12 mins. and throbbing...

'sigh'

there are highs and lows in every love. we're just stuck in a rut right now. but all my bitching and moaning for the past year are taking its toll.

But i digress.

i followed the warm and fuzzy feeling. look where it got me. but i would never ever regret it.

is there such thing as a bad emotion? or only ones you don't enjoy?? would your life be as hollistically satisfying if you didn't have this source of melancholy?? life IS a bed of roses. you just get the thorns together with the fragrant petals. would you rather have a bland and smooth-sailing life or would you rather feel the entire gamut of emotions and feel ALIVE? we all have our angst and bitching. but who says you have to live life in black and white? there's an entire rainbow of emotions out there. but duhHhh, it always rains before the rainbow can come out. but hey, melancholy shoudn't be romantized. being a neurotic isn't a very productive state.

Live life. And love. I wouldn't have this 31st start any other way.*kaway*babay 2005