upon dancing the argentine tango

i have been trying to give some signs of how i feel, but if there are words that i can never ever weave neatly, those are the three words that can either bring you closer to me or push you away. it scares me too much, that even if my heart is bursting with all the emotions that i can pour into what we have or have had, the fear that you would smudge me hangs around like an emotional nightmare waiting to happen. so i hope that if in case you stumble upon this page, you will understand and still consider me as a friend, and more ..

i had let you into my heart and nothing was the same ever since.

they say that we all happen in each other’s lives for a reason. i still do not know the reason for which PapaGod put me in your life, much less you in mine. ang liit liit ng mundo!!! if your being a part of me is all for nothing, how do i explain the circumstances that had brought us together, how we both enjoyed the same things, the conversations that widened our views, the mutual attraction, your smiles that felt so right, the way you made me feel as if the world could crumble around me and i would still be alright. that He had brought you into my life to teach me a lesson is an old story; i have already learned of love, patience, friendship and sincerity before i even had the faintest idea that there was a person whom i could spend a lifetime with and never regret a single second of it: Ikaw!

it was once said that love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition. you made me rediscover myself and realize my strength. you made me understand that i had to be closer to Him, even if the road in which you left me to thread on alone was paved with so much hurt! in spite of everything, thank you for the thought that even for just a fleeting moment, you had inspired me and gave me the strength to wade through busy schooldays; the friend who made me feel wanted in more ways that i never knew possible. i hope that you will think of me in the same light should our paths till go on parting and tomorrow see us in other persons’ arms. but until that happens, i will hang on to my faith and pray that PapaGod will grant my wish.

in spite of my desperation to hold on to what has been, i will be alright and will face each tomorrow as a journey towards becoming the person that you deserve and deserves you. but i hope that once in a while you will wonder if i am alright, and think fondly about me and the times that we spent together. should i have no chance at all of knowing it, i hope that you will still keep me even in the remotest corner of your heart because, even just for a fleeting moment, you too loved me